When does the crying stop?

No not the baby. She is sleeping peacefully. Me.

I have always been a crier. I cry at movies, especially Disney cartoon movies but I mean who didn’t cry when Bambi’s mom got shot? Disney are some sick F*ck’s putting that in a baby movie. Oprah could make me cry sometimes. Just thinking of certain sad things can set me off with the water works. I definitely think a good cry can be therapeutic.

Lately (since I first got knocked up that is), the weepiness has been out of control. Of course Oprah made me cry like 5 times this year. I’ve been avoiding Disney movies. Sometimes I’ve just needed to cuddle my baby to ward off the tears. Yesterday, I literally had to stop my train of thought and completely change what I was thinking of to avoid crying. Today, I completely freaked out at Hubby and had to yell at him to stop talking. I’m minding my own business, feeding angel baby, when in he walks and just starts telling me about this horrendous case of animal abuse. I tell him I don’t want to randomly hear about extreme cruelty to greyhounds that goes on in Spain when I can barely stand what they do to race dogs here. He continues to tell me horrible things so I had no choice but to scream at him. He then looks at me like I am insane and tries to say that he just wanted to tell me about one dog getting rescued from blah blah blah and tries to explain the abuse again! Needless to say I hollered at him again and he finally got the point. I was on the verge of tears during all this.

I know what is going to happen next. I am going to be sitting in class, suddenly his awful story is going to pop into my head, and I’m going to look like a crazy lady who bursts into tears for no reason in the middle of school.

So I ask, when does the crying stop?!? And for that matter, when does the ridiculous hair loss stop too? I am shedding so much I have broken the vacuum.

Cloth Diapers part 3

Have I mentioned I’m cloth diaper obsessed? There will probably be a part 4 as well.

I have been using some of the Flip diapers, the regular soaker inserts. They worked pretty well at first. I have been following the instructions on the label which simply say to wash hot and tumble dry on low. I have been drying them on high heat actually though. Suddenly they have started leaking! I decided to test one out overnight. I changed angel baby at about 11 pm and we laid down for her last night feeding. Half way through I realize she has peed through the diaper, through the cover, through her pj’s, and onto the sheets! I get her re-diapered and changed then move on to changing my bed sheets. Ugh. We were up until about 1230-1 am by the time all was said and done and we were actually sleepy again.

I was extremely pissed at the Flip diapers. They are only about 2 months old and should not be leaking. I had to strip them (wash them in Dawn dish soap). It seems too soon to already have to be stripping them. Come to find out ALL Free and Clear can cause build up on them. So I either have to wash them separate, which I don’t have enough of them to justify their own load, not use them, or strip them every other month. It is crazy how all these expensive cloth diapers out there have all sorts of special instructions and limitations that void the warranty. The simple cotton birdseye weave pre-folds I got for 6 for $9 are turning out to be the best option. Cotton- soaks up the messes, wash however you want, dry on high. One down side is that they might not wick moisture off her bottom quite as good as some other materials, that’s debatable though. I can’t wait to learn to sew and start making my own! Any material and care instructions I want!

A day in the life

I had been warned that I did not want my purely breast fed baby to only poop once a week as some of them do. Apparently, on this one day a week that your baby decides to poop, it is non-stop pooping! I had a small experience with this today. Angel baby had a massive crap this morning after about 3 days sans poo, possibly another diaper stainer. I was glad it was while we were at home. We went out for the morning and ended up using the diapers I had brought along in the diaper bag. I had to run to the bank before we went home. The diaper she was wearing would suffice and I planned to change her out of what would then be a wet diaper when we got home. I pulled into the bank parking lot and no sooner did I turn off the engine then I heard the second massive poop of the day. Normally I would have just changed her in the back of the car but as I mentioned, no more clean diapers with me. I run into the bank to make a quick deposit. Of course there is a line. My turn. Nope. This teller can’t help me and I have to wait for the teller already helping the woman who needs 10 different things done. Finally my turn, I’m done in a minute and back out to the car. We head home, a quick trip as our city is small. Nope. We get stuck at the railroad crossing for a middle of the afternoon freight train. Finally I’m home. I open the diaper and just see a small streak. Oh must have sounded worse than it was. Nope. The blow out is behind her butt. I am ill prepared. Poop on the changing table, poop on the baby butt, poop on the baby foot, and I sprayed the wipe solution on her outfit so that also needed to be changed. This was one of those times when most people are capable of going to the bank and changing their baby without getting stuck behind the longest line, stuck waiting for an on-coming train, and stuck with hidden poop, but not me.